Spur of the Moment

Okay so I was on twitter (as I so often am, www.twitter.com/ceante) and I was tweeting about how a really great song can be ruined because it reminds you of someone or something you're not fond of. Well, that word 'ruined' inspired me to write. So I wrote "Ruined" and shared it on twitter, oh maybe about an hour ago? And "Ruined" inspired me to write "The Rain", which I didn't feel like tweeting in pieces so here they both are. They are very raw and in their first form, no re-writes yet. I haven't even decided what I want to do with them, but let me know what you think!

RUINED

All that's left are these ruins

A shell of the person I used to be

I let you inside of me

And you left me ruined

Seduced by your charm

Your eyes pulled me in

And you played me a song

Your tongue spilled with lies

All promises unkept

They sunk in, left me paralyzed

A love I'd forever regret

Misguided, you led me where I was afraid to go

You let me die here, you made a ghost of my soul

The desert is where you left me

Where I burned in the flames

I waited for your return

But you never came

Moved on to the next

Another lie you lived to tell

You'd wave from the road

While my scorching tears fell

You left me ruined

Nothing but stains

All that's left are these ruins

As I wait for the rain.

THE RAIN

In the desert I waited

Days felt like years

Other snakes had me jaded

Too many tears

The Son scorched my soul

He burned me til I was dust

My bones ignite like coal

I vowed never to trust

I almost lost myself that day to the blistering red clay earth

Every Son in the sky has burned me thus far

So I began to question my worth

At that very time, a darkness rolled in and colored the blue skies gray

As I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, it began to rain

The sweet nectar fell on my lips

And washed the dust off of my face

I looked down at my feet and watched pleasingly

As you swept the charred pieces away

I could feel my skin again

So soft and smooth to the touch

You nourished my starving mind

Cultivated my barren trust

You filled my heart with every wet drop til my soul overflowed with love

Drenched in the rain, you gave me the strength to pick myself back up.

Kiss Summer Goodbye...

Summer's coming to a close and I'm beginning to count more cloudy days at the beach than sunny ones. I've had plenty of adventures in LaLaLand full of ups and downs. I'm hoping this fall will bring more ups. =) It's easy to buckle under the stress load when decisions can leave the course of your life hanging in the balance. Needless to say this summer's been stressful...

Buying a house is a b!*#h!! I can not say that any more clearly. This real estate market is crazy and I've had to literally give my realtor the go ahead to put in offers based on photos because I couldn't get there in time to view it. Silver lining: I now live in an apartment steps from the beach with an amazing view until I find the right house.

Musically, it's been all about networking and collaborating with new people.  Being somewhat new to LA it's been awesome getting to know new people and working with new artists, writers and producers. I can't wait to share some of these with you because I've been lucky enough to meet some super talented people. Time constraints may force me to switch gears from the planned mixtape which is super frustrating, but I'm determined to stay focused on the music.

So things are still moving along, some days more slowly than others but I can't complain. So kisses to Summer and I welcome the changes of Fall with open arms…

♥ Ceanté