Spur of the Moment

Okay so I was on twitter (as I so often am, www.twitter.com/ceante) and I was tweeting about how a really great song can be ruined because it reminds you of someone or something you're not fond of. Well, that word 'ruined' inspired me to write. So I wrote "Ruined" and shared it on twitter, oh maybe about an hour ago? And "Ruined" inspired me to write "The Rain", which I didn't feel like tweeting in pieces so here they both are. They are very raw and in their first form, no re-writes yet. I haven't even decided what I want to do with them, but let me know what you think!

RUINED

All that's left are these ruins

A shell of the person I used to be

I let you inside of me

And you left me ruined

Seduced by your charm

Your eyes pulled me in

And you played me a song

Your tongue spilled with lies

All promises unkept

They sunk in, left me paralyzed

A love I'd forever regret

Misguided, you led me where I was afraid to go

You let me die here, you made a ghost of my soul

The desert is where you left me

Where I burned in the flames

I waited for your return

But you never came

Moved on to the next

Another lie you lived to tell

You'd wave from the road

While my scorching tears fell

You left me ruined

Nothing but stains

All that's left are these ruins

As I wait for the rain.

THE RAIN

In the desert I waited

Days felt like years

Other snakes had me jaded

Too many tears

The Son scorched my soul

He burned me til I was dust

My bones ignite like coal

I vowed never to trust

I almost lost myself that day to the blistering red clay earth

Every Son in the sky has burned me thus far

So I began to question my worth

At that very time, a darkness rolled in and colored the blue skies gray

As I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, it began to rain

The sweet nectar fell on my lips

And washed the dust off of my face

I looked down at my feet and watched pleasingly

As you swept the charred pieces away

I could feel my skin again

So soft and smooth to the touch

You nourished my starving mind

Cultivated my barren trust

You filled my heart with every wet drop til my soul overflowed with love

Drenched in the rain, you gave me the strength to pick myself back up.

Kiss Summer Goodbye...

Summer's coming to a close and I'm beginning to count more cloudy days at the beach than sunny ones. I've had plenty of adventures in LaLaLand full of ups and downs. I'm hoping this fall will bring more ups. =) It's easy to buckle under the stress load when decisions can leave the course of your life hanging in the balance. Needless to say this summer's been stressful...

Buying a house is a b!*#h!! I can not say that any more clearly. This real estate market is crazy and I've had to literally give my realtor the go ahead to put in offers based on photos because I couldn't get there in time to view it. Silver lining: I now live in an apartment steps from the beach with an amazing view until I find the right house.

Musically, it's been all about networking and collaborating with new people.  Being somewhat new to LA it's been awesome getting to know new people and working with new artists, writers and producers. I can't wait to share some of these with you because I've been lucky enough to meet some super talented people. Time constraints may force me to switch gears from the planned mixtape which is super frustrating, but I'm determined to stay focused on the music.

So things are still moving along, some days more slowly than others but I can't complain. So kisses to Summer and I welcome the changes of Fall with open arms…

♥ Ceanté

From Ceanté

To everyone who has contemplated giving up and giving in:

If you know you've been divinely engineered, there is no worldly element that can prevent you from fulfilling your written destiny.

The only thing that can stand in your way is you.


♥ Ceanté

Love You Long Time

Alright so I know it's been a while since my last post. I was waiting for some "things" to happen, but "things" are moving a bit slower than I'd like. So I'm back, for real. Anyway I know so many Drake fans are looking for their next fix to tithe them over until June 15 (is that still the date even?). Well yesterday this track from "Thank Me Later" leaked. It really reminds me of Alicia Keys' Unthinkable,  but I love it! What do you think??

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FEARLESS

For those of your that may not know me personally, it's a well know fact that I am arachnophobic. And when I say this, I mean grade A, certified, not just scared but can't even see a picture of a spider, ARACHNOPHOBIC. I would tell you stories and where it all came from, but I am leaving that fear in the past. One day I just got sick of being afraid, tired of having that weakness. It's annoying to me. Now let me just say that I have no plans whatsoever to hold or even get near a tarantula (still can't even look at one), but I am taking steps, baby steps, but steps nonetheless okay!

So in the past few days I have killed 3 spiders!!!

Now I don't have the luxury of forgetting about my fear because spiders are always around, but  aren't you sick of letting your fears dictate whether you can travel to other countries, see New York City from the Empire State Building, go hiking with a friend, go back to school (I'm so proud of you!!) or be the best version of you that you can possibly be? You've made certain decisions in your life because you were scared and now maybe you're not happy with the way things turned out or aren't enjoying life as much as you could be.

I know my biggest fear is failure in my music career. Because of that I spent 5 years of my life working on a back-up plan. I can not get that time back. So now I wake up everyday and fight the urge to go for guaranteed success in my back-up plan and take steps towards my own ultimate fulfillment. And I trust that I was made to do exactly that because every time my faith falters and my knees begin to buck under the weight of doubt his strength kicks in like reinforcements and together we move every mountain that stands in my way.

So if you are not happy with yourself or the direction your life is headed, have the strength to look your fears in the eye and make a change!!!  

Getting back to my roots.....

Lately I've been feeling really blocked creatively. With so much to do all the time and still getting things squared away with our new apartment (we currently have no couch!), I've had very little time to write and when I do it's with the pressure of writing a song. I put this pressure on myself of course, pressure to sound a certain way, pressure to write a certain way, instead of allowing it to be what it is. So I'm getting back to my roots. I originally started as a poet. I love writing period. Sometimes it's poetry, sometimes it's a song, sometimes it's just a rant, whatever it is, I let it be. So I decided to attend this open mic last night at this Cuban restaurant. First of all, the food was AWESOME!!! Azafran Cuban Restaurant in Oceanside, try it!! Anyway, the vibe was very chill and laid back, the people: supportive & responsive. The poets came from every background, all ages, different experiences. It was beautiful, very inspiring. I intend to go back whenever I can and share some things that I've written. So I will return to my "pressure free" writing and let it all flow. It always turns out better that way!!

Anyway in celebration of other writers, I am posting a song I recorded back in Boston for my friend and amazing producer, Mauricio Herszkowitz. A friend of his wrote it, I never actually got her name (so sorry!!) but Mauricio produced it and I was just the vessel. Check it out, let me know what you think!!

Happy New Year and Happy Birthday to ME!!!

Okay so I took a little break over the holidays. So HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! I hope that you haven't abandoned your resolutions already and are ready for a great year, I know I am (I'll get into that more in a near future post)!!!!! So yesterday was my birthday and it was a beautiful one despite the week-long rain here in Cali. So I'm doing my usual net-surfing on Tuesday and stumbled upon an early birthday gift from my absolute FAVORITE mc, Talib Kweli!!!!!! I squealed with joy (which I do not do often) and quickly downloaded the Re:Union mixtape of Talib Kweli & Hi Tek from Kweli's Year Of The Blacksmith

So to share the wealth, here it is!!!!!!!

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